Cuddling and sleep

I have been searching my memory and I don't think that I have slept a whole night through since before I got pregnant. There may have been a night or two in the second trimester when I was fortunate enough to get a whole night in, but other than that, not so much.

If I let myself, I can get pretty down and annoyed with how little sleep I get, or frustrated with the broken up sleep. Andrew does really well. He sleeps through the night, usually 10-11 hours without interruption, with the exception of if he doesn't feel well, teething, and when we separated the twins and put them in their own bed.

But Matthew... *Sigh* Matthew struggles with sleep. He goes to bed a lot easier, but he still wakes up through the night. Lately, he has only been getting up once or twice through the night unless his braces rub a sore on his feet. I can handle that one or two times. And the nights where he is up 6 times get to me, but those are the nights when his feet hurt, so I can cut him a break with that.

Although I get annoyed when I have to get up and nurse him, I also savor these times, because we get some good cuddle sessions in. Well, he is asleep, so he is mostly sleeping on my shoulder. Which I love! It is rare that I get some good cuddling in with Matthew because he is so energetic and wanting to play as soon as he is done eating, that I am actually OK with those night wakings. Because after all, he is only little once, and these days are so short. They are sweet times, albeit exhausting times. And even though I get up reluctantly, I end up rejoicing and thanking God for my little miracles. And usually stay in there room rocking and cuddling with Matthew longer than necessary because there is nothing better than having my babies sleeping in my arms, smelling the top of their sweet heads, and listening to their even breathing as they sleep.